Belladonna

Yesterday was a great reminder on how catty women can be and how much men can be complete dicks. Anyone who’s read through this site here knows exactly whom I am talking about. Well not exactly whom as name per say but who they are in my little life here on this planet.

The harassment has gone into full swing. FB’s ex and my still partner at work decided she wanted to try and set him up with one of the girls she knows. Well FB graciously declined and stated if he didn’t need any help finding anyone even if he wanted to. Well she took that answer for a little while. Then the full blown catty cunt came out. Yes you all can put your jaws back now I said the C.U.N.T. word and to be truthful that is exactly what she is. In the 4 hours he had his detail she got many harassing, absurd, threatening phone calls from his ex. He had told me about her wanting to set him up and all that shit earlier in the evening so when I sent him a text saying “Have fun on your date tonight. LOL” I got a call right away from a very miffed FB. That is when he thought the cunt called me and started going off on me or said god knows what to me about him. I thought I was just being funny seeing I had no clue what had transpired between our conversations. Well he didn’t find it very funny. Well not until after I told him I knew nothing about what had happened.

She really needs to just drive over herself with her own vehicle already. I cannot understand how nobody has beaten her to a pulp yet. Seriously she is a fucking cunt. I know all the different sides of her and when she called me this morning just to make sure I was still going with her to her state testing it through me for a loop. I know she has finally figured out that FB and I are together, she has had to by now and with last nights little episode I am damn sure her theory was finally found true. But I will play this up way to much for her to keep thinking so. You see I know how to play her like a finely tuned piano, she just doesn’t know it. I have my abilities that I don’t use very often because they can be seen as… well lets just say nothing good. But on her I show and feel no remorse for using them. For what she has done in life I wish her the worst pain even death wont take away. But then again I can just be biased seeing she beat FB to a pulp many times. But then again because he was not the only one.

As for the men side of things the ex is just being an ass. Hes treating FB like shit and trying to be something he is not in the PD. I started to get harassing phone calls last night after 11 from an unavailable number and guess who just happened to be working at the barracks last night? Guess who’s shift started at 11pm last night? Wow some people really think I am stupid don’t they? Private call rejection doesn’t work in my town. Why I don’t know I tried to turn it on today when I got home and it wouldn’t work. Stupid fucking verizon. But heres the best part about the ex I know he is planning something and he wants me to know he is up to something. Myspace of all places told me this one. He is brainstorming and his mood was evil. Either this is a tactic for me to go “Ohh No big bad ex is gonna try and ruin my relationship” or hes just trying to get a rise out of me. Which he is getting neither. I haven’t answered any of his IM’s and I couldn’t really care less about his status message. Hey maybe he should go get with the cunt, they would make a great pair.

OK enough bitching for tonight. FB and I are just fine and this hasn’t even rocked our boat a little bit. If both of these idiots want to destroy their career by trying something stupid let them. Believe you me I can take them both down already and they would be sitting in the streets where no where to go.

I wonder if my ex knows that the military will kick his ass out for having an affair? Hmmmm I will have to keep that one in mind.

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So I haven’t posted in a long while. Eh been busy so who cares right? Right!

This is still the little hidden site I have stuffed away for all the personal life shenanigans. Which I must say have been well lacking the shenanigans.

FB has gone and come I think 2 times to Iraq since my last post. I guess that shows my worry about it all has started to settle down. I don’t come right here and cry about him leaving. Well OK cry is an overstatement.

So much crap has been going on in other areas of my life its not even funny anymore. Work has been in high gear for the past few weeks. Right now we have lost all funding from one of the towns we cover. Yup that’s right they have up and cut us out of the budget. The worst part is that its the town I live in and now we don’t have ambulance coverage that is guaranteed. We are in no way obligated to provide service to the town anymore. Its stupid seriously stupid because the state is obligated by law to provide ambulance service to the town or hire an outside company to provide that service to them.

But its my day off and I am going to try and get plurk up and running again so I can out myself to the others who have no idea of this site. But its ok at this point I am no longer worried about the ex finding it and being an ass to me for being with someone else. Yes FB and I are still flying under the radar on the work front. When you work for the town its much better to be that way.

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Last night I had a revelation. FB and I have been together for almost 6 months. Holy fucking COW!!! I don’t know where this year has gone and it doesn’t even feel like 6 months has passed.

Maybe it doesn’t feel as long because every month he is gone for a week or longer, sometimes more than once a month. I know what I signed up for when I started seeing him. But I had no clue that it would make a 6 month relationship feel only weeks old. We still talk all the time, we have yet to run out of things to say. The funniest part of chatting with FB is after the boys have gone home for the weekend. FB just goes on and on and on and then confesses that its great finally talking to an adult.

FB and I have finally started to make time for each other. Well more of FB has been flying more so finding time is the hardest part. He had left 2 times this month already for short trips but I don’t hold it against him and he knows that. But the best part of him finally getting time is he will come and stay with me here. After the first few times he was over and just leaving for the night I never thought he would stay here, but I was wrong. I don’t even need to say anything he just says its time for bed and goes to my room. I was flabbergasted when he first did it last week. I had no clue he was planning on staying. So I guess its a good thing I always keep a dog blanket on the bed so the puppy hair isn’t in the sheets all the time. Gah I hate it myself but that would be just too embarrassing to deal with.

I don’t know if I had mentioned this before or not because I haven’t posted in forever but FB is planning on going back on active duty come September if his spot is still open. Still not sure how I really feel about that but like I have said before I always support what ever it is he does. But I did find out he would be home for most of it. He wont be over the pond for the whole 3 months of the first set of orders.

Ya know the more I learn about the military the more I tend to not like it. Yeah who would of thunk?

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Reality TV has hit a whole new low. Tila Tequila’s shot for love on MTV. Seriously I am not kidding here. Brett Michaels had a show, Britney had a show, the Lohans have a show, fuck even the Hulk had a show but Tila? Were talking a reality tv show with men and women competing for her ‘love’. WTF ever! I watched about 5 seconds of it before wanting to pry my eyes out with my cats nails.

Now I have a whole new reason not to watch VH1 and MTV. VH1 because they are showing the reruns, the reruns of the show I never saw or heard of in the first place. So when the hell will MTV aka Music TV start actually showing music videos again? Not just washed up musicians who have reality shows?

The questions will never be answered. Who wants to go back to the 80’s?

Video killed the radio star? More like reality tv killed the radio star.

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Lets not get into the negitave parts of my birthday. All I will say here is 6 hours in the ER really killed my weekend.

But annnnnnnyway I got up late on saturday morning and was rushed for everything I had to do with more stuff added in. I will post about this on my other site later or when ever I get around to it. But we got the toy party and set up. A fuck ton of people bailed on it. Why I will never know. But we had a good group of people seeing it was just the group it is normally at every party. Sure kept things interesting.

JJ and I had a sword fight with out little penis erasers. All the guys got a kick out of that one. I have a nice little video to show you all to but being on dial up I will have to wait until wednesday for when I head back to work. But all and all it was a good toy party. I set up my order for my skinny dip stuff and the virtuality sleeve for FB. We were running really late. Supposed to be back for the other party by 7pm. Yeah try almost 830 for the start of that all. I got a little pissy with that because I hate being late. It drives me fucking nuts when people are expected to be there on time and you are not there to greet them or let them in. Blah.

FB was very pleased with the how I smelled. I was covered in so many things I don’t even remember. But I know it smelled good I just couldn’t smell it anymore. :blush: But boy he could. I thought I wasn’t even going to make it back to the party. But I will tell you this, he got his own demo on toys, lotions, candles, and the best of all is he is also infatuated with skinny dip. So me being me I had to smell of it for the night. Now the best part is he wanted to try the nympho’s desire. FB thought he was going to catch me at one of my “all talk” moments when he asked me to apply it to him. Boy was he wrong I followed him to the bathroom and gave him a little something then applied it. I swear he was about to fall over once it started to work. I can tell you right now he was damn glad he was wearing jeans. :devil: He got so worked up he didn’t even notice the bathroom door was open. :shocked:

I let him stew with that nice crazy feeling all night. Drove him absolutely crazy.

But my wish to get drunk and get laid for my birthday came through. I really didn’t get drunk but I did get laid. :angel: I taught that boy more things then he ever thought possible.

I called out of work for tonight. FB and I are going to go out for dinner possibly. If he or I don’t fall asleep first.

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OK more like to busy to keep up this alter ego I have here. Don’t worry its not going anywhere and there isn’t a lack in recent drama either.

I wont go into to much detail but I was followed FOLLOWED to FBs house on Monday. I just happened to drive down the wrong road at the wrong time and was seen in town. I watched as I was followed the 2 miles left to FBs house. Not a real good feeling I tell ya. What I see funny is how the ex is freaking out over finding out I went there. Ahh Hello your the one who left me remember? Gah men are stupid. FB is well aware of what is going on. I keep him in the loop on everything. I just feel bad for him having to deal with this with me.

So anyway………… On to better news, FB and I are back on our regularly scheduled program for Monday nights. Was nice to just be with him without interruption again. It had been way to long. Was a nice relaxing night filled with Rock Band and hot hot sex. Yes those two go together in my world. You can call me a geek its ok I am at full acceptance of it.

Saturday is the day. Well actually tomorrow is. It’s my Birthday!!!!
But it gets better as most on twitter read. Part of my birthday bash is a Athena’s party. For all of you who don’t know that is a dildo party. :devil: So FB wont be there and that makes me kinda sad. I will just have to give him his own demonstration when he comes later in the evening. :kiss: But either way he knows the deal for Saturday night I have it all laid out. Even put in for the time off with the same reason. (My boss hates me for this) I will be getting drunk and getting laid. Thats my plan. So after getting all horned up at the party and smelling of super yummy powders, lotions and pheromones I am going to get what I want that night. Seriously it is all about ME isn’t it?

If any of you are wondering I have a order started already for FB, I promised him a virtuality sleeve for his birthday last month. I figure he can bring it with him when he flies.

OK off to bed. More later I am sure. Like I said there is no down time in the drama called my life.

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I feel like I am being phased out.

I get no calls, no texts, no emails, no nothing.

I saw him at work last night and he wouldn’t even meet up with me before I went home.

I called him today with no answer and left another message.

I don’t need to feel like this. Why did I ever give him the power to hurt me?

I’m off to go be depressed now. This just feels like one more kick while I’m down.

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I feel like such a teenager with a crush. I have a dilemma going on. I want to talk with FB so bad its :silly: killing me. I am worried about him because hes been sick all weekend. I have only gotten one text message from him and that was last night.

Fuck me its Monday and its our day to get together and just well be with each other. I called him at around 11 when I got out of my thing this morning and no answer. I even left a voice mail. I never leave VM ever! So a little while ago I sent him an email just saying the typical shit like I hope hes feeling better and that I miss him. I put in a little bit about my day and told him I was worried about him being sick.

I hate feeling like this. I have been fucked over so many times that I am always thinking the worst. I know hes just sleeping or out and about but I still have a feeling like I am being blown off or ignored. It’s a very relentless feeling. I know that is not what hes doing so I don’t know why I feel this way but I just do.

Jen said its love. I’m not to sure about that. I really do like him, don’t get me wrong but I don’t think I love him as of yet. I keep him at a distance right now, I keep waiting for something to get all fucked up. That is something I need to work on I know. I just want to talk to him about my insecurities and I just can never seem to get the time. We have had very limited time recently. By limited I mean I have seen him for an hour in the past 3 weeks. A FUCKING HOUR! I’m dying over here.

But ya know what this ranting has helped me feel a little bit better. Send FB call me vibes.

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FB is home.
I got laid. :wub:
Life just got a little bit better. Thats all for now. It’s been a both week for both of us and I just got out of class. I will write more tomorrow, maybe.

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